~My life, My story~

Let me tell u something...I do love teaching...so much.But sometimes I feel really exhausted n suffocated as one after another workload being push to me.Like after one hardwork,then xsampai sebulan kena lg pastu kena lg dan lg dan lg sampai rasa nak bernafas pon x smpt.I do feel like crying few times but when I think about the baby inside me I try not to.I dont want my baby feels the pressure I felt.I also feel sorry towards daniel...my firstborn.Sometimes aku mmg xlarat nak layan dia main n buat perangai n selalu dia kena marah.how to overcome this?....it  must stop.I must b strong....for myself,for my family..Dear baby,please help ur mom.I need love,I need empathy n I need rest,i need sleep.....a lot.I dont have enough rest n sleep this few days with the endless pain I felt.

It's been a tiring week for me...today is my father in law funeral day, 5 days after he passed away. Sebab berbadan dua,xbyk yg aku boleh buat dan bantu.Kebanyakannya cuma taking care of the mischievious,hyperactive daniel....Subhanallah,mmg sgt2 aktif.I cant imagine if the next child is also a boy.I cant handle daniel alone.Dia dah makin kuat melawan kalau didukung,dah pandai tantrum kalau xdpt barang dia nak,dah pandai nk pukul kita kalau kita larang dia buat apa dia nak....n he is only 1 yr 7mths old.Dis 5 days his father banyak ada kat his parents house to help.As anak lelaki to mendiang,banyak perkara yg dia perlu buat with his brothers.At most time also,aku yg kena tengokkan daniel.At the same time i'm suffering from buasir n also peha melecet.Can u imagine that?...rasa mcm dah mcm beruk kena jln mengengkang dlm rumah ni.Kalau di khalayak umum mmg aku buat biasa ja xtunjuk tp sakit,pedih tu hanya Allah yg tahu.This pregnancy mmg betul2 mencabar.Cirit birit teruk sampai ja